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I am having to take some steps back and evaluate. Sometimes if I take in everything that we have up in the air at the moment, I lose my breath. I keep reminding myself that I have so much to be grateful for. When things start feeling overwhelming, I start listing gratitudes. Too Blessed to be Stressed, right?

Yesterday wasn't one of my finest parenting days. Nicole worked late (our schedules are all over the map since I started my Thursday night class) and between trying to cook a healthy dinner and Brenner's fiery spirit testing every boundary, I found myself complete against a wall emotionally. I lost my patience, raised my voice and ended up putting the kids down early simply because I couldn't handle my OWN behavior and I didn't want them to have to either. Sigh. A good night sleep helped.

I have three highly extroverted days on the way, though. I am thankful that I can look forward to a run after work as a break and that one thing I will do only for myself. It feels good to have a goal, I'm monitoring the calories I am eating again and just two days in I'm reminded how my healthy habits have slipped with stress and lack of time.

I have faith that everything is going to work out. I need to take the pressure off of myself and be happy where I am for a moment. We might need a weekend getaway as a family thing spring. This life I lead is a good one.

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