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This week has been intense. There’s no other way to describe it. I am SO looking forward to a weekend with my wife and adorable boys. My trembling heart and exhausted body have had enough.

From Drop Box

As usual, when I feel this way I force myself to look at the tiniest aspects of the world. I’ll watch ants march, check out blades of grass or small stones. I found these adorable little mushrooms all over the campus on Wednesday when nervous energy drove me to walk and walk and walk. I might just walk to get my lunch today, too – on this drizzly, grey and cool summer day.

I feel like until I had children, life felt like this endless space of time. I floated along enjoying the sunshine like the days would never end. Now I see my days blinking by me, my children growing so fast and I still feel like I look and feel the same as when I was 21, newly in love and making fearsome and great choices about my life. The magnitude of those days never left me, I just feel bigger and taller in myself as I look at my accomplishments and my relationships. I am proud to support the family I’ve created here – blood and chosen – and I’m going to be there for all of them unquestioningly for the rest of my able-bodied life and probably beyond.

Good bye, Steam-Roller week. I’m slightly more flat than when we started, and sadly not any thinner! But I’ll be back for more. That’s right.

(no subject)

This week has been intense. There’s no other way to describe it. I am SO looking forward to a weekend with my wife and adorable boys. My trembling heart and exhausted body have had enough.

From Drop Box

As usual, when I feel this way I force myself to look at the tiniest aspects of the world. I’ll watch ants march, check out blades of grass or small stones. I found these adorable little mushrooms all over the campus on Wednesday when nervous energy drove me to walk and walk and walk. I might just walk to get my lunch today, too – on this drizzly, grey and cool summer day.

I feel like until I had children, life felt like this endless space of time. I floated along enjoying the sunshine like the days would never end. Now I see my days blinking by me, my children growing so fast and I still feel like I look and feel the same as when I was 21, newly in love and making fearsome and great choices about my life. The magnitude of those days never left me, I just feel bigger and taller in myself as I look at my accomplishments and my relationships. I am proud to support the family I’ve created here – blood and chosen – and I’m going to be there for all of them unquestioningly for the rest of my able-bodied life and probably beyond.

Good bye, Steam-Roller week. I’m slightly more flat than when we started, and sadly not any thinner! But I’ll be back for more. That’s right.