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May. 6th, 2020 09:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dreamsrundeepI haven’t checked the news in days. Yesterday I started bringing my knitting upstairs while at work and I knit during meetings that I’m not actively facilitating. It’s improved my focus, kept me from multitasking and endlessly scrolling the internet or haunting my email… and seeking out the news. I’m filling my hours intentionally, I think. My heart hasn’t been in reading, so I’ve taken to listening to podcasts in the evening while the kids veg out after dinner, knitting and listening. That’s what I’m doing. Keeping my hands busy, brain engaged.
It’s really reducing my anxiety. Having my hands busy is keeping me from picking at my face or letting my anxiety encourage that dermatomanical behavior pattern. Even though my body has been sore since Saturday's run and I haven’t been running/yoga-ing since (because my days this week are literally back to back meetings for eight hours), my anxiety is managed and I’m okay. I’m also doing great on the not-drinking thing, too. I’ve settled on moderation rather than complete stop – but I’m allowing 2 nights a week. I had a margarita (really, limeade/tequila) with our tacos last night. And then maybe will have something this weekend. My body feels better, I feel better, I’m sleeping better, and my mental state is holding steady.
Week seven of Stay At Home life.
I listened to the polio episode of This Podcast Will Kill You last night. The way these ladies speculate about pandemics when one is actively happening is crazy. Alternate-universe feeling. They were talking about how our generation has never know summer pool closures and stay at home orders… and I’m like, “Welp. We do now!” Yikes. I was also introduced to the fact that you can buy giant stuffed microbes. They just updated their site with the Covid-19 bacteria. Some of them are super cute. I also like that you can get packs like “Tainted Love” with STDs. Or “Ancient Plagues” with Black Death, TB, and Leprosy… (Link: https://www.giantmicrobes.com/us/main/diseases)
Okay. So maybe this is another weird coping mechanism?
Nicole is making phenomenal progress on clearing and cleaning our room in preparation for New Bed. It’s really all we can talk about. Something to look forward to is essential, I guess. Especially because there feels like so little to really LOOK forward to right now.
It’s really reducing my anxiety. Having my hands busy is keeping me from picking at my face or letting my anxiety encourage that dermatomanical behavior pattern. Even though my body has been sore since Saturday's run and I haven’t been running/yoga-ing since (because my days this week are literally back to back meetings for eight hours), my anxiety is managed and I’m okay. I’m also doing great on the not-drinking thing, too. I’ve settled on moderation rather than complete stop – but I’m allowing 2 nights a week. I had a margarita (really, limeade/tequila) with our tacos last night. And then maybe will have something this weekend. My body feels better, I feel better, I’m sleeping better, and my mental state is holding steady.
Week seven of Stay At Home life.
I listened to the polio episode of This Podcast Will Kill You last night. The way these ladies speculate about pandemics when one is actively happening is crazy. Alternate-universe feeling. They were talking about how our generation has never know summer pool closures and stay at home orders… and I’m like, “Welp. We do now!” Yikes. I was also introduced to the fact that you can buy giant stuffed microbes. They just updated their site with the Covid-19 bacteria. Some of them are super cute. I also like that you can get packs like “Tainted Love” with STDs. Or “Ancient Plagues” with Black Death, TB, and Leprosy… (Link: https://www.giantmicrobes.com/us/main/diseases)
Okay. So maybe this is another weird coping mechanism?
Nicole is making phenomenal progress on clearing and cleaning our room in preparation for New Bed. It’s really all we can talk about. Something to look forward to is essential, I guess. Especially because there feels like so little to really LOOK forward to right now.
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Date: 2020-05-06 05:46 pm (UTC)I used to have one of the plushie microbes, but I finally just felt too weird about it and gave it to my friend who is a post-op trauma ICU nurse with a very droll sense of humor.
Kudos on the knitting/podcast thing to keep anxiety in check. It's good to have that level of self-awareness! (and I bet you will make some nifty things to boot)