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 [personal profile] spiffikins created a 2024 Question of the Day List here. While I cannot commit to daily, I think I'll treat them as the Friday 5. 

 
1. What’s the Coolest Thing You’ve Ever Seen in Nature?

While on a cruise in the Mediterranean in college, I saw Stromboli erupting at night on a dark sea. We were far enough away that it was safe, but close enough that we could see magma shooting up into the air and the flashbulbs of all the helicopters hovering around the volcano taking pictures. In the dark of night, rivers of fire running down a mountain in the ocean (with a moon) were pretty stunning. And because all those volcanoes are cousins, we saw the smoke from Mount Etna the next day. It was not actively erupting, but smoking like it wanted to.

2. Could You Stop Shopping for an Entire Year?

Probably not. We're not self-sustaining in that way. We need food. I could probably not clothes shop, though.

3. What National or International Events That You Lived Through Do You Remember Best?

Challenger exploding
Oklahoma City Bombing
President Bush declaring war on Iraq
9/11
Obama winning the election
Jan 6th

That's off the top of my head. Don't know what it says that I don't have any international ones. If pressed, maybe the tsunami in Thailand in 2004? And the Fukushima Nuclear accident.

4. Are Your Eating Habits Healthy?

I mean, generally yes. Better lately.

5. How Do You Fight the Winter Blues?

Dreaming about summer vacations. Space heaters and blankets. Plants in my office with their plant light on.
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It was a hard weekend over here. 

Brenner came home from school Friday and said he was really, really tired. Didn't feel great. I Had to bounce back up to work for last-minute Friday call, so I wasn't downstairs when they got home - but Nicole took his temperature and he was at 101. Great.

He slept downstairs and stayed isolated in the back room to try to keep the rest of us healthy. Which was fine. But hard on him because he felt so puny and felt isolated. Even though we didn't put any limits on his videogame time or tablet/computer use at all. Funny. Most weekend he'd really WANT that, but when you're sick - it's just not as fun/hits different. 

He was also sick to his stomach at 8:30 on Friday night and his fever was in the 102* range, so Nicole and I decided we'd shift sleep so an adult was close by (on the couches downstairs). I was supposed to get up at 5:00 and relieve her. But I was kind of hoping for a sleep in on Saturday ... so I set my alarm for 5:30 thinking that if she was sleeping, maybe I'd get about 30 more minutes. But at 5:01 on the dot, she came into the bedroom and was like, "It's 5:00. Get up." She got me out of bed so gruffly and fast that I forgot to remove my mouth guard. I barely had the wherewithal to pull myself together before blearily stumbling from the room. I had to take a trip back up to grab my glasses off the nightstand and put my mouth guard away. 

Turns out that all of her landscaping work last week aggravated her shoulder/neck/arthritis problem and she was like a bear with a thorn in her paw. She didn't sleep on the couch at all and came upstairs angry about it. I'd already agreed to go trail running with Ashton at 9 - so going to bed at 5 AM for her, I was optimistic that I could get the kids all settled with what they needed and she might be able to sleep until almost 11:00. 

But she couldn't sleep in the bed, either. She came downstairs all salty about me going running and telling me she'd "see me in three hours" because I'm a slow(er) trail runner. We had six miles planned on a trail we know pretty well ... so my feeling were hurt. Hour and a half to two hours is about average for us at that distance on that mountain ... but she was grumpy and mean about it. We finished in an hour 49 minutes AND we even got lost in the woods. We made an error: Going the opposite (counter clock-wise) direction on the loop. In the fall where the trails are already obscured by leaves and everything looks different.  Lessons learned. 

At one point, Ashton realized we were lost (red blazes were suddenly orange) and she was like, "Hey! New trail!" And she just kept running. My brain was like, "Wait, what? Should we turn around? Are we lost? Will we get MORE lost? What's happening here?" And then I literally felt myself mentally shrug and was like, "Eh. Whatever. I'm sure this is fine." And just kept following Ashton on this trail. What's the worst that could happen, right? We eventually (like a quarter mile later) found the road and were able to reorient ourselves and go back down the parkway to our trail. So it was fine.

The rest of Saturday consisted of Nicole taking down Halloween and starting to put up Christmas. Taking care of Brenner whose fever was all over the place Saturday. And hanging out with Brooks. I feel like I MUST have done something else on Saturday ...

... Oh, that's right! Mona was here. Our college friend brought over her second grader because she had a work event/art opening to attend, so Mona was with us for a few hours. We watched the new Haunted Mansion together and it was fun. (Brenner in the back room. Poor baby.)

And then Sunday happened. Daylight savings is always a trip. Constantly feeling like you're an hour behind even when you're grateful you had an extra hour of sleep (which we just reliably started getting again with older kids). 

We also had the Grace Potter concert on the schedule. Y'all. Nicole and I went to see her together a few times pre-kids/pre-pandemic and were trying to go see her Floyd Fest 2020 that cancelled due to global pandemic. Ashton saw she was coming back in August and was also a fan (having seen her in New York as a grad student when Grace was touring closer to home/Vermont) and asked if anyone wanted to go with her. Nicole and I did. But then Brenner was sick on Saturday. He was fever free on Sunday and I was like, "It's probably okay for you to go..." But she felt like she couldn't ask her mom to watch Brenner. Sigh. So - I had this choice of going to Grace Potter with Ashton or cancelling. 

... And I elected to go. I've cancelled all races/plans with Ashton/running friends to accomodate Disney and other things, the last thing I wanted to do was bail on her the day of a concert. She probably wouldn't have gone alone - but maybe? Anyway. There was a lot of Drama around here with Nicole having FOMO and me electing to go anyway. We had a raised-voices moment where Nicole was angry at me for always going and doing things with my friends and I had to point out that she is literally invited to ALL OF THE THINGS. She always tells me no. This is the one time she said yes AND Brenner was fever-free and feeling better - if she wanted to go, I'm sure her mom would have helped. But she didn't want to run the risk of exposing her mom to germs. (Even though the minute Karen knew Brenner was sick, she was down here in his room. She did wear a mask, though.) 

Anyway. It was rough. I felt caught in a very sticky situation. But I went. And it was worth it and fun and I'm super sad Nicole couldn't/didn't go because it was a great show and she would have had a great time. SIGH.

I got home after midnight and she barely talked to me. I tried to talk to her but it was very cold-shoulder, so I just went to bed. 

AND got myself up this morning after 5.5 hours of sleep to have coffee and make the kids breakfast and do all the things I'm supposed to do in the morning because I didn't want any additional fall-out from my choices. Yes. I was tired. Did I WANT to sleep in? Yes. I did. But I got up. 

But when it got to be 7:00, Brooks was awake and said he didn't feel like going to school. Brenner ran a fever last night (the one piece of info I did get from Nicole at midnight) and was already leaning toward saying home (not information I got from Nicole last night) - so when I went upstairs to check on/wake Nicole at 7:00 and told her Brooks wasn't feelin' it, she acted like they'd already decided the kids were staying home? Brenner kept bemoaning the fact that he didn't feel like he got a weekend and at some point Nicole had told them they could stay home today because the public schools are out ... and there was a distant thought (before fever) that they could hang out with their besties and play hooky today ... but all of this was in a fuzzy space and I wasn't sure what was happening. Especially because the kids have an algebra test today that they both were acting like they had to take yesterday ... But. Brenner was sick and didn't study, he doesn't feel 100% today and Nicole *would* have taken Brooks to school, but since he wasn't feeling like it (which is rare), she leaned HARD into not taking him so she didn't have to drive across town ...

... All that to say that Nicole got to stay in bed and get more rest while I still had to get up and do all the morning things and go to work. The kids were up. They wanted breakfast. The dog needed care. And I wondered somewhere inside if this hadn't already been decided/proposed last night and Nicole didn't tell me at midnight intentionally because she was still salty about Grace Potter. (To be fair, she did get up before 8:00 - so it wasn't MUCH of a sleep-in. But if I had known, I would have gotten up at 7:00 and not 6:20 like normal.)

I mean, probably not. But in my overly-tired, already-emotionally-triggered, afraid-I-upset/disappointed-my-spouse-with-my-choices brain, it all made sense to me as I was fighting back tears smearing Nutella on a waffle. She's not a vindictive person, usually. Not with me, anyway. But I could tell she was really upset yesterday and feels like I do things with my running friends all the time. And she was salty that this was live music. She's the one who really loves live music and a lot of the time I'm not one to run toward those events. But, to be fair, they're not Grace Potter, either. 

I thought I had to work Veterans Day. But Turns out, I don't. Short week. So I asked Nicole this morning if she wanted to go hiking on Friday with me instead. She said yes. So maybe it's a start.
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The kids have a day off today! Lucky that Nicole talked to Kimberly yesterday and she mentioned it. It was NOT on our radar screen. I have to laugh at us sometimes. I was like, "Nicole! We have to do better!" But, what's the funniest part of all of this is that *I* am the one who consistently reads the school newsletter and *I* missed it. 

It's a teacher workday so that they can go shopping for all the things they need for Fall Trip. Which is NEXT WEEK. Oh my goodness, how the time is flying by already! These months are always so busy. This first half of the school year/last quarter of the calendar year happen at double speed. 

I was hoping to find some flexibility in my day to go to the comic book store with them, but alas. It is not meant to be. I have some fire drills to care for and meetings all day. But it's fine. Nicole is planning a fun day. They just left to go on a little hike with the dog, then will come home to have lunch and go out shopping afterwards. I'm so, so grateful to parent with Nicole and that she gets to be this amazing stay at home mom who can do these fun things with our kids. All. Good. Things. 

Moment of gratitude for living a life I didn't know if I'd ever get.  Makes giving up my lunch for a supplier site training tool demo worth it today ;) 

I had so many things I wanted to write about this morning and was surprised by an 8:30 on my calendar. I barely had time to pull myself together before the meeting because no kids being up allowed me a false sense of leisure this morning. Sheesh. But again, all is well. And I get to wear my new pink jean jacket today because the day started in the 50s, I opened my office window and just enjoyed the cool start to the day. 

I'm starting to prep for intense travel and commitments over the next several weeks. Things like buying makeup - I routinely surprise myself by how Femme-y I am when getting ready for things like this. I didn't like the Almay foundation I tried because it consistently turned yellow on my skin ... which I later learned means that I have a cooler skin undertone and that 'neutral' skin tones can lean one way or the other. Which ended me up at Clinique again, searching for a cooler neutral foundation. Which led to a lipstick. Which then reminded me to go onto amazon and replace my fancy french eyelash curler that finally had a spring break ... and then new tweezers because mine keep disappearing.. (Ahem, NICOLE.)

Nicole just good naturedly listens to me ramble about makeup and clothes with a "Whatever you need, dear." approach. Long, suffering wife. But I do occasionally look like a Corporate Queer and she LOVES that. So. Win win.

I'm in a better place with my boss after implementing some changes and in my meeting with her today, she gave me many compliments about the shift in communications I've made and the work I'm leading. So. All good there. Positive shift in the universe that's given me a little more confidence and a boost I needed. 

Okay. Off I go to continue tackling the day. It's already noon and I've just managed to grab little moments here to keep this entry afloat this far.

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 The pool was a success for the kids yesterday. I'm glad they got to hang out with some school pals before school starts. We're probably going back to the pool tomorrow night for dinner, too.

It's Invest In Yourself Week and while I took my IIYD on Monday, most people take Friday. I anticipate a quiet, easy Friday tomorrow. Which, I confess, I am TOTALLY looking forward to. This week has been a challenge. Working from the pool for a few hours tomorrow sounds just about right. If I work at all. I may just knock off at 1:00 and be done with it. There are SOME perks to all this stress. Flexibility is one of them. 

By the time I left work yesterday, I had such a terrible headache that it was hard to think. I'm sure it was a hormone-induced migraine based on all the other things I've been experiencing this week. Weird because those used to come before all the other symptoms, but okay. I guess it could have also been tension. My dentist appointment yesterday revealed nothing wrong with the tooth that was tender, just encouragement to wear my night guard and she could tell I'd been clenching my jaw all day. So I guess the headache *could* have been a tension headache. But it's also ragweed season and I'm not taking my allergy meds, so it could also be allergies. 

Whatever the reason, I texted Nicole at 4:00 and prepared her for me not to come at 5:00. I'd taken extra strength Tylenol at 2:30 and usually that does it. Nope. Not even a dulling of the ache. But the evening was so pretty. A light breeze, 83*. I couldn't stand it. I put on sunglasses and drove myself to the pool. I had regrets on my way there as the sunlight stabbed my eyes. I ate, enjoyed the company, and then when we got home at 7:00ish, I went straight to the bed. Darkened the room, used my peppermint and lavender essential oils, weighted blanket, CBD, more Tylenol. I tried everything for several hours to get the aching to stop. Eventually I gave up, turned on the light and read until I was tired enough to fall asleep and then hoped sleep would cure it. 

I felt iffy this morning until I had some caffeine. I'm still not feeling ready to tackle this day, but it must be tackled. No way out but through.

The kids and Nicole are going to focus on putting their room together today. Unpacking, moving clothes. Getting new pillows. The package with their new curtains, lamp, and animal hammocks is coming today, so hopefully we get that set up, too. Then - tonight - they'll sleep in their new Big Kid/Teen room. Peeling the vinyl dinosaurs off the wall and remembering when Nicole and both lovingly put them up for them ... man. 12! They are getting so big. In fact, when Brooks flopped down on his new full sized bed, his toes are already touching the bottom. ALREADY. When we measured him and looked at dimensions of full beds, he more than fit! That was only in March! What's next for him?! How do people over 6" tall find a bed!?

I wish I could finish my cute romance novel today and start another book. Ah, working for a living is certainly in the way of the independently wealthy lifestyle I would sure like to lead.
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This week is a "no way out but through" week. I am booked to the gills. Straight through every day, no lunches, right through Friday. Looking at my calendar makes me breathless this week. 

That's what happens when you step away for three days the prior week. 

But also, that's what happens when you forget to go out and block some downtime/think time ahead of the weeks like this. I learned last Friday and went out ahead for the next month and blocked some hours for work and downtime because I cannot do the actual work I do while juggling meetings. There are 14 meetings on my calendar today. In an 8-ish-hour work day. I'm triple booked in my 3-4 o'clock hour. Karen extended my check-in this week to an hour for my Mid Year review ... which means I'm going to be 15-20 minutes late for my hair appointment. I need to text my stylist to ask her whether or not she'd rather I just reschedule.

I also, stupidly, told Nicole I could take the car by Kia today for them to look at the mirror. She was stressed about all she had on her plate today. Taking Brenner to swimming, they want to go to Lowes to get paint once the comforters are delivered, they have a movie party at 3PM today, She was going to to try to squeeze in some work, I think? 

I thought I had 40 minutes at lunch time today (and could be late to my 12:40), but it turns out I'm booked straight through AND I'm double booked for my team meeting with my PEER team meeting and GAH. What the actual fuck, here? 

I'm just going to breathe. This is fine. It will all get done. Not Kia. Not today. But tomorrow. And that will be fine. 

I did have such a nice weekend overall. Started Eleanor's birth announcement stitching project and that's been a delight. Started Thistlefoot and am already pleasantly surprised (usually I am intrigued by Baba Yaga stories at the start and then remember I don't like them - but this one started off in New Orleans with Isaac Yaga ... so I have high hopes this will be different and entertaining!), and spent a lot of time with the kids/Nicole. 

I have a travel bug, though. I want to have an adventure *badly*. I don't know how much of that is "run away from work" and how much of that is truly ready for adventure - but also, watching facebook people take these big vacations to far-off places makes me want to wander, too. I love the inspiration and to follow their adventures. It's a great turn from envy that I felt during the pandemic. Or, that envy mixed with "what they hell are they thinking?" I'd rather be inspired by people's travel any day. 

 Okay. Gotta get started. Deep. Breath. 

(This is also going to be a challenging week because I am on rest from running. Sheesh. I hope I find another way to manage this and my shin splint gets better soon!)
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It has been a long week. But I am home. 

The drive up Tuesday morning was fine. Meeting with my leadership team was good for the soul. I went out to dinner Wednesday night with the Alumnae Board Richmond Contingent (and had General Tsos Cauliflower - life changing!) and then came home Thursday night. 

I was supposed to come home this morning after a trip to Traders Joes for my Mother in Law. I mean, I love Trader Joe's, too. And I wanted to go - but I did NOT want to go after work on Thursday and then drive home. So I planned to stay an extra night to shop on Friday morning and come home. The plan was to attend my two early morning meetings and then go. But my Mother in Law never sent me her list. She was having a tough emotional week and kept saying "Never mind." and "I don't want anything." pretty forcefully - she's sad and angry about her housing situation and lashing out. Poor Nicole is the lightning rod. So whenever Nicole asked her (because I'm a planner), that's what she got.

So Thursday. No list from Karen. Nicole is texting me that she misses me. The meetings end at 3:00 and I'm like ... I could do this. I could meet one more client casually, I could get out the door to the hotel, be packed in 20 minutes and on the road *definitely* by 5, home by 8 ... I could do it! I'm telling my team about it and Rogenia is like, "You *could* place a Trader Joe's pickup order if you place it at lunchtime ..." 

I text Nicole one last time to see if Karen had a TJ list. Nope. So I tell her I'm coming home. 

I get on the road by 4:30ish and I'm home by 7. Halleluiah! Nicole feeds me. I brought home a Cookie Cake from the bakery at work (which is STELLAR, by the way. And cheap!) to share with them to celebrate getting home early. 

Nicole tells me that literally 30 minutes after I texted her that I was coming home, her mom called with her list. Nicole was like, "Too late, mom. She already decided to come home." Eeek. 

Like. WHY. Why do people even? I've been asking all week. And then, just when I decide it's not worth it to stop just for me and I'd rather get home, THEN the list?! I was low-key furious because now I feel terrible but also like, Why did it take until Thursday at 1:00 PM. Nicole was like, "Well, she thought you were going tomorrow morning..." And like, Sure - but still. 

Anyway. I promised the kids when I left on Tuesday morning that I would take Friday afternoon off to take them to the bookstore. But instead, since I'm here all day, we're going to go to the Starcade and Pinball Museum, too. Bookstore, Starcade/Pinball, Lunch, and then I asked Nicole out on a date, too. But she hasn't asked her mom yet even though I asked her to do so on Wednesday. Sheesh. These Celli Women and their last minute. I asked her NOT to ask her mom. If we walk to Bloom at the end of the street, the kids will be fine in the house for an hour or two. 

I'd also like to go to Buff City Soap and replenish my supply. My slip of soap that's left is teeny. These soap pirates in the house! Sheesh! Stop using Mama's good soap! 
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Who even am I!? It's the day I leave for a race and I am not packed, I am uncertain where my outfit is, I haven't thought through my drop bag in too much detail and I still need to go shopping for fuel and miscellaneous things. 

Good thing it's a light work day. I'm leaving after my 9:30 to run to the Running Store and the grocery store. Then I have time to pack and figure my life out at a high level. I'm not terribly stressed. I won't need too much. But still. I'd be packed at least 48 hours in advance most times. 

I guess, while I am at it this afternoon, I should also start thinking about Richmond next week. Maybe select a few tops to wash and dry on the rack so they're ready to pack Sunday night.

It's fine. This is fine. 

Is it denial!? Am I really running a 32 mile race through the night Saturday?! That's what it is, right? At least I get a hotel room to myself and will get to sleep in on Saturday and rest throughout the day before the race. Two of the quad are going to a Paint Afternoon Event at 1:00, but Ashton (her husband and dog) and I are not going. Maybe walking around Farmville will be good for my legs a little before the race starts at 5:30. Sheesh. Anna. Next time we go to the spa! 

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I feel like I am working harder than I have in my whole life AND have less to show for it tangibly than ever. But that's okay. I think I've hit the level in my career where it's more strategy and thought-work while my team is delivering on the tangibles, I'm just a shepherd who gets them through gates and solves the bigger, escalated problems. Which tires my brain out. And keeps me in meetings non-stop. 

But I'm overall happy to be challenged. I mean, I am TIRED this week. I've gone to bed each night either on time or early and dropped into DEEP sleeps this week. My anxious day not-with-standing, things are going pretty well. 

I was in back to back meetings yesterday from 8:30 to 1:30 (straight through lunch) and then left for the day to go to the Local Heroes celebration. We were on time and walking through the arches onto the front quad of Hollins (the boys' school is right across the street from our beloved alma mater and they get use of the facilities) to the Talmadge Recital Hall where the ceremony was taking place, I was floored with gratitude. As I'm processing past trauma, one of the things that just GETS me every time is how Nicole and I show up. Whenever we are able (more her than me sometimes due to work), we show up. We're on time. We're totally there. Our kids never have to worry. If we say we're going to be there to support them, we are THERE. I told Nicole as much while we were walking. I was never, ever sure. And more often than not, my parents (mom) didn't show up. I was in a play in 8th grade - there was a small festival where parents were invited to come and circulate through our rooms and see what we were learning. I invited my mom. She said she was coming. I knew she wasn't. But still, throughout the whole day I held onto this hope/fantasy that she was coming just so that I could be angry about it later. Ah, preteens. But still. I remember that day so fully that showing up to Local Heroes yesterday - where we were some of the only parents in the audience - made me grateful AND emotional. 

Therapy is hard work, yo. 

But parenting my kids and feeling like I'm doing a good job - I mean, SO much better than what support I felt like I had - is both hard and beautiful. 

And these kids, y'all. Watching Brenner give Katie an award for her work with Inclusion and Diversity yesterday. Speaking in front of a crowded auditorium. I was verklempt. But also - all the other awards given, a few to civic leaders I knew, and a few I hope to get to know more. The award was founded by the first director of the school in the honor and spirit of Martin Luther King Jr. and I found out the first director and co-leader of the award all those years ago were people I've had the privilege of knowing through Points of Diversity, too. It all felt so full circle and beautiful yesterday. 

We measured the kids last night, too. Both officially taller than us. I've also lost another half an inch. Weird. Maybe I should have that checked. We measured each other after measuring the kids because neither of us could believe how tall and gorgeous they are. I'm 5" 5 1/2' and Nicole 5" 5'. The kids are both solidly 5"6'. 

As if in response, the Universe had Brenner's new bed delivered by surprise this morning at 6:30 AM. We heard a large truck and noise and looked out the window this morning in the murky dark rain and saw UPS carrying four IMPOSSIBLY large boxes to our porch. My only though was we are too old for this shit. Putting together a full-size loft bed sounds terrible. 

The friend we have that owns a painting business came last night to get the lay of the land and measure/estimate paint and cost. We're taking the kids tonight after school to pick paint colors for their room. We're starting with the guest room/den, then the hallway, then their room. In the next month, they might have a bedroom put together with beds that fit their long, lean, healthy bodies. 

The house projects for this year are slimmed down because of budget, but we're finally painting the hallway and rooms I've listed. We're having the electrician we know come out and replace some lights (my office, the hallway 'boob lights', and the fan in our dressing room) plus he'll install the ceiling fans on our porch and hopefully add electric next to the washer and dryer so we can move the chest freezer from what will be the den/guest room to the laundry area. AND I'm going to hang curtains and decorate our porch a little. That's it. With the loss of the giant tree out front, the heat on our porch makes the space infernally hot. By summer, I'd like to have some shade out there + the ceiling fans to make it a bearable place to hang out. The back yard is very shady, but with Nicole's lush garden each year and the fact that half the backyard doesn't get much sunlight and tends to stay damp after rain, the mosquitoes back there are horrible. One day - screened porch back there. Or maybe not. We may not live here much longer after the kids go to college. The plan is to buy the lake or beach house around then ... who knows. 

All of this started with feeling so much joy and gratitude this morning for my family. I'm so lucky to be co-parenting these strong boys that are empathetic, funny, are willing to talk about ethical implications of chatbots and AI (my recent obsession - I can't read enough about it), and are just great humans. I'm grateful for their school, a safe place raising the change-makers of tomorrow. And I'm grateful to Nicole for holding the world together this week as I kind of fell apart under my workload and was just exhausted in the evenings WHILE handling her mom. 

We think a cash offer was put down on the house this week, probably that young couple from Albany that asked about when the leases expire. So now we know we will have to make arrangements for Karen, but she has a great lead on a house AND learned from section 8 that her benefits went up in response to the housing price increases in the area, so she can afford to pay a little more in rent - which is good. Her options might be better than we thought. But still, moving is stressful and we'll be expected to help. I wonder if we can just offer to pay for movers? That would be worth it.

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 Here are disjointed things:

1) My little brother and his wife are having their baby today! The baby's growth seemed to stall and Lindsey's blood pressure was all over the place, so here comes the little one. Only about two weeks early, which is fantastic. I've been getting sporadic text updates since the induction started late last night. 

2) I missed most of them because I went to bed at 7PM. Time change + Marathon = EXHAUSTED. 

3) So. I ran a marathon. 

Here's how that went: 

It was 80* degrees. A freak warm day in Raleigh for this kind of race. There's a *reason* we run these distances in the fall. It's downright dangerous to run in that kind of heat and humidity for that long. Especially when you've been training in the low-humidity, pretty temperate fall-like conditions on the East Coast. If you haven't heard what happened at the New York Marathon with the people collapsing and tapping out due to heat-related conditions, it definitely also happened in Raleigh. 

Also. I don't know HOW it's physically possible, but I swear the entire city of Raleigh manages to be UPHILL. Like. The whole thing. Every downhill was slight, every hill was brutally tall. 

Around mile 5.5, Anna burst into tears and said that something was wrong. She was numb between the shoulders, had tingles running up her neck, and was finding it difficult to draw a deep breath. We'd been running up a hill in the blazing sun around some elementary school and I was honestly questioning all MY life choices when she broke down. I stopped and pulled her off the course with Ashton and asked her what she wanted to do. She wanted to try to make it to the next aid station. And y'all. There weren't that many aid stations in the first ten miles. I asked, "Are you light-headed, too?" My worst fear being she would faint and then we'd have to worry about a broken skull/bones or something if she fell. She said yes.

I told her there was no way she could continue. I marched over to some police that were blocking the nearest intersection to us and asked them to call the EMTs. Anna told us to continue on without her. It was the hardest thing I've ever done in a race. Feel like shit myself, be afraid of what was to come, and to lose our experienced marathoner at mile 5.5? 

I was sick. I somehow managed to gut-bomb myself. I couldn't eat. All this time training with 'real food'. I had three uncrustables, a package of pickles (dilly bites) and some gummy electrolyte chews as backup. I could barely eat the morning of the race and I figured my sick stomach was nerves. At an hour into the race, as per usual, I started to eat an uncrustable. I nearly puked. I tried to drink water. I nearly puked. I got some gatorade at the next aid station. Nearly puked. Every thing I put in my stomach destabilized me for several run/walk cycles. I was afraid that I wasn't going to be able to eat enough calories to sustain me for the distance, much less in the heat. I was low-key panicking. 

Around mile 8, we saw a half marathoner on the course that was having a seizure and EMTs were surrounding him. He was already bagged with an IV and covered with cooling blankets. 

Around mile 10, we realized we were on an out-and-back on their greenways with very little support and lots of hills. First Marathoner came back by us. (That's when we realized we were out-and-back-ing - which, by the way, is both terribly demoralizing and also kind of fun. You can cheer on and see the elites and other runners coming back toward you ... and know you still have a REALLY FAR WAY to go before you turn around and start to come back, too. And you're looking at the route knowing you're going to have to come back UP all these hills ...)

Mile 15, another young woman down and bagged with an IV on the ground crying. 

Mile 18, a runner goes down in front of us, asks us to tell the police at the next intersection to come get him. The greenway was REMOTE y'all. The stretches between aid stations and intersections were scary lonely. Like, you're in the middle of everything and still so isolated. I felt an anxiety attack that I barely managed to control. 

Because at mile 18, Ashton's uterus gave up. She was telling us she had low-level pain in her abdomen for a week and thought maybe her IUD had gone walkabout. Or a UTI or something. At 18, she couldn't run anymore. She was sunburned and pale at the same time. 


So from mile 18-26, we walked a 15 mile per minute pace.

At mile 17, a woman at an unofficial aid station refilled our water packs. We were each carrying 2 liters when the day started. 

Mile 20, we lost the friend we'd been walking with. He was an older man who was incoherent at the aid station at mile 20 when we stopped to see if Ashton needed to pee. He tried to talk to the aid station worker and asked for directions, said he was lost ... we were clearly on course. The EMTs at that aid station were asking him all sorts of questions he couldn't answer - like, "What day is it?". Ambulance time.

Mile 21 we were dive-bombed by a Red Tailed Hawk who was so close we could feel the wind from its wings as it crashed into leaf-litter and left with a mouse. 

At mile 22, I thought I wasn't going to make it. We stopped again at an aid station and refilled our packs with more water.

Mile 23, I still wasn't able to eat more than my chews, but had my first hunger cue of the day and hoped my stomach was uprighting itself.  

Mile 24, I was sure we were going to make it.

Mile 25, I didn't want to walk anymore and said we weren't going to make it. Ashton just started talking. She told me the story of the most expensive wedding she ever went to. She talked me through her neighborhood like we were walking her dog down to the library, describing all the houses and dogs. 

And somehow, we finished. Six hours, 29 minutes. 

My whole bra-line is chafed like I have a ring of burn around my chest/trunk. My feet are a blister. The whole pad of one foot and between several of my toes. 

Anna was at the finish line. She refused care even though the EMTs said she could have a heart attack the way her heart was acting. She said she was sure she was fine and it was the heat. But she had her own stories to tell because once the ambulance got her and she had EKGs done, she was on a ride-along with them as they continued to get SOS calls (more than what Ashton and I saw on course) and just accumulated people in ambulances/golf-carts along the way. Once they got close enough to the finish line, they let her out to walk to her car. 

We still had a two mile walk to Anna's car (all uphill, I swear) once we finished. Slowest walk of my life. But we made it. The day before we bought wine and cheese and charcuterie things at Whole Foods while we charged Anna's electric vehicle. Anna whipped up charcuterie and we grazed all night but my stomach could only handle a few bites and then 30 minutes of rest or so. 

We watched an entire season of Love is Blind. 

Went to bed at 9. 

Yesterday we slept until 5:30 AM because we're all EAF risers. I took a meeting from 9-11 and we left. Stopped by Crumbl cookies to get cookies for our families. Went to Trader Joes. Home by 3:30. 

I'm still walking like I hurt all over. Because I truly hurt all over. But I'm also happy I did it. And glad I don't have to do it again. 

Until we run that 50K in December. Geeeeez. We're questionable. 



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 Tampa done and dusted. It was really fun to be in person with the Senior Leadership Team. We had a very nice Happy Hour on Tuesday night with delicious nibbles and wine flights that were eclectic and delicious. And dinner on Wednesday was at this upscale restaurant with amazing food, too. The strategy meeting was productive and we're on the same page about goals for next year. While action items still need some work, I'm pleased with where we landed. All in all, good trip. 
 
I slept so, so hard last night. My hotel room in Tampa was on the 15th floor all the way in a corner. And usually that's the room I would pick (I have enough Hilton points that I get to pick my room each time) but this was a randomly assigned room at a Marriot/Westin. I was like, "Sweet! This is gonna be a great room!" Only to get up there and hear the gears turning on the service elevator shaft that were apparently RIGHT THERE on the other side of my wall. The 15th floor was the top floor, so all the machinery was at my room level. The elevator ran all day constantly and I just hoped that there was some sort of night-time curfew on it. I got home around 9PM each night and the elevator was still running, albeit not as constant as during the day. It did seem to die down. I only heard it one time at 3AM the first night and the second night I didn't hear it at all until I woke up at 6AM. Sheesh, though. Now I know. And while that hotel was stunning and had amazing views of the bay, I think I might stay closer to the office next time. The majority of the leadership team is a Marriot Crew and I'm usually a Hilton Person - but I will admit that my last stay at a Hilton was a little rough and this Marriot was *amazing*. Granted, the Hilton was in Short Pump, Virginia - so, who goes there?! The Marriot was in a vacation/work destination, so of course it has to have a high game. Still - next Richmond Trip I'm staying somewhere else. 
 
I got a notification when I got back from Vegas on Saturday morning from CovidWise that I'd "Likely been in contact with someone who tested positive for Covid 19." And then got a text in our group text that Amy on the West Coast got a message, too. Only hers said, "You HAVE been in contact with someone who recently tested positive for Covid 19." Funny whose semantics, right? I was not terribly worried because I've had Covid in the last 45 days but I still caught some sort of yuckiness and have been popping Zicam ever since. I mean, I feel fine now and I wouldn't have traveled if I'd still felt sick, but I did make sure to wear a mask more to protect my fellow passengers from whatever I might have. But also to avoid piling on MORE sickness so that I can run this marathon next weekend as healthy as possible. 
 
Nicole wasn't thrilled about the CovidWise notification but I was like, "What did you expect? I was at a conference IN VEGAS. Of course I was going to be near someone, somewhere who tested positive after." I wore my mask, I was careful about who I was around, but STILL. The irony, though: She was all upset about me traveling but the Kitchen Lady called her last Tuesday after she'd been in the house and talking with Nicole and working on our kitchen to tell her that both she AND her husband had it. Her husband had been symptomatic all weekend and she thought he was just being a baby with the man-flu but nope. Covid. Round two for them. I was like, Of course. Of COURSE! She was all worried about ME (I mean, with reason-ish) and then Lisa brings it right into the house. 
 
Okay then. So, obviously, not much was done on the kitchen last week. Ron, the carpenter guy, did come by and cut plywood for a temporary counter over the lowers that we DO have in place and hooked back up our sink so that we can at least have some use of the kitchen and running water. Nicole bought our new stove and had it delivered last week, which was a victory. Monday or Tuesday the rest of the cabinets will be delivered and later in the week we'll have an installation. THEN we'll be ready for a counter template person to come out. I don't know the turnaround on the stone and neither does Nicole. But hopefully it's not weeks and weeks. They should have already ordered our slab. Who knows. 
 
This weekend is going to be a busy one. I have a 10 mile taper run tomorrow with the team and then there's a Trunk or Treat at the Elks Saturday night. Sunday I'm supposed to go for a walk with My Bestie and catch up with her. Then it will be Halloween on Monday. The kids are trick or treating with their Twin Besties and maybe Louis. There's a lot going on. The fall is so busy as it is without travel layered on top! 
 
Today there was a costume parade at the boys' school. Just the little kids parade, but the whole school was invited to wear their costumes to show them off. Brooks took a change of clothes with him because his Lemongrab costume is all white. Brenner didn't go to school today. He declared the need for a mental health day. He's in a buddy program at school that he doesn't like. He didn't know at the beginning of the year that this free-period on Fridays was either Choir, Band, or Buddies. Since he has no music experience, he didn't know what to expect in the other classes and defaulted to buddies, which turns out to be helping out in the little kids classrooms. He's miserable. He doesn't really know how to interact with the little kids and his introvertedness as the sole entertainer of these littles is overwhelming to him. He doesn't get much support or direction from the teacher in the classroom, either. So we let him stay home today and emailed his teacher with his choices for next quarter's Friday groups and asked about moving him into Choir. 

Side note: Brooks is in Buddies, too - and he is constantly FLOCKED by the little girls in his class. He doesn't LOVE it, but he admits that he's "good with little kids" and that he can get them to play games and do things with them. He said they have a weird sense of humor but overall doesn't mind being their buddy. How are my kids so different? Brooks has always attracted little kids and he IS so good with them. His sweetness is overwhelming. 

I'm trying to work as little as possible today. I would have taken today off, but I feel like I have too much to catch up on. Sheesh. 
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Everyone is home!

The sink is already full of dishes. There are clothes on the floor NEAR the hamper but not IN the hamper. The bathroom counter is already re-cluttered with three more people's worth of stuff. 

Hilarious. 

It's so good to have them home. I wasn't expecting them until 5:00ish, but the Ring Doorbell alerted me at 4:00 to movement and I opened my camera and it was THEM! Best! I had a 4:05 meeting/daily check-in with my boss, so I hugged them quickly, went upstairs and checked in for 20 minutes and then she was like, "Go be with your family"

I did have a hair appointment that I dashed out to for about 30 minutes. While I was gone, Nicole ordered dinner. The kids wanted their favorite place downtown (American food) and Nicole wanted Indian food. I forgot my phone at home in all my happy disorientation of them being home, so Nicole tried to call me to ask what I preferred ... She found my phone and ordered me my favorite dish from each place! I now have Indian food today for a meal. 

I finally opened and tried on my StitchFix that came sometime last week. I need to be better about doing it the day (or day after) it arrives. Everything in the box was a win. I LOVE that treat every month. I mean, I need to back it down to every other month now that I have some cute, workable, clothes. It was so easy to get dressed this morning. I have on a nice blouse and new navy crop pants from my box this time. A great outfit truly makes the difference. 

I feel worse today than I did yesterday, sinus-cold wise. I took my allergy pill and a mucinex D yesterday morning at 4 AM. I was able to go back to sleep but when I woke up I felt like I was on speed (note: I have never done speed) all morning and then all medicine head-y all afternoon. Both are 12 hours, so I took another round at 6:00 last night thinking the speed-like start would wear off by bedtime ... but nope. I was up until nearly 11:30 and had to force myself to go to bed. It was nice to stay up with Nicole. It was in my plan anyway. I just am normally not so animated that late at night. She was slightly bemused. When she started to doze on the couch because she'd had a long day of travel, I went off to bed. 

I've googled enough to know that taking both of them together (allergy pill and mucinex) isn't *dangerous* but sheesh. I don't like how it makes me feel BUT I don't like the congestion and allergies all piling on to make a sinus infection happen. I've learned that if I can do this for a day or two at the outset of symptoms and drink plenty of water, I can usually avoid a trip to the doctor and an antibiotic. Yay. No one likes to be sick their second week of work at a new place! I'm soldiering on. Luckily, I have no meetings today until 2:00. This time will NOT last. I have a few task-y things to do this morning and will enjoy a clear calendar while I can.
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This journal is a mix between Friends-locked posts and Public posts.  I generally do add anyone who adds me, but a comment is always nice.
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I haven’t checked the news in days. Yesterday I started bringing my knitting upstairs while at work and I knit during meetings that I’m not actively facilitating. It’s improved my focus, kept me from multitasking and endlessly scrolling the internet or haunting my email… and seeking out the news. I’m filling my hours intentionally, I think. My heart hasn’t been in reading, so I’ve taken to listening to podcasts in the evening while the kids veg out after dinner, knitting and listening. That’s what I’m doing. Keeping my hands busy, brain engaged.

It’s really reducing my anxiety. Having my hands busy is keeping me from picking at my face or letting my anxiety encourage that dermatomanical behavior pattern. Even though my body has been sore since Saturday's run and I haven’t been running/yoga-ing since (because my days this week are literally back to back meetings for eight hours), my anxiety is managed and I’m okay. I’m also doing great on the not-drinking thing, too. I’ve settled on moderation rather than complete stop – but I’m allowing 2 nights a week. I had a margarita (really, limeade/tequila) with our tacos last night. And then maybe will have something this weekend. My body feels better, I feel better, I’m sleeping better, and my mental state is holding steady.

Week seven of Stay At Home life.

I listened to the polio episode of This Podcast Will Kill You last night. The way these ladies speculate about pandemics when one is actively happening is crazy. Alternate-universe feeling. They were talking about how our generation has never know summer pool closures and stay at home orders… and I’m like, “Welp. We do now!” Yikes. I was also introduced to the fact that you can buy giant stuffed microbes. They just updated their site with the Covid-19 bacteria. Some of them are super cute. I also like that you can get packs like “Tainted Love” with STDs. Or “Ancient Plagues” with Black Death, TB, and Leprosy… (Link: https://www.giantmicrobes.com/us/main/diseases)

Okay. So maybe this is another weird coping mechanism?

Nicole is making phenomenal progress on clearing and cleaning our room in preparation for New Bed. It’s really all we can talk about. Something to look forward to is essential, I guess. Especially because there feels like so little to really LOOK forward to right now.
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I am up super early on Sunday because travel anxiety has me by the nerves. I spent all of yesterday in denial, soaking up time with my family while trying to forget all the things I have to do to get ready to fly out on Monday morning. Ugh.

I also am not the best at checking LJ on the weekends, but saw that I had some new friends thanks to the Friending Meme happening here.

Today I have to:

  • Wash my work clothes (Chicago) and some summer clothes (San Antonio)

  • Pack

  • Host a Super Bowl Party/Family Dinner

  • Conduct a Study Circle for Points of Diversity from 2:00-4:00

  • Go to Brunch at a Friend’s house


I know it will all get done somehow. And I do not regret a second I spent snuggling just a little longer or staying up a little too late with the kids last night. So, all will be well.

How did I become the corporate mom that commutes between a bustling valley in Virginia and Chicago?

The kids are starting to stir and morning is about to hit the ground running.

I am armed with coffee.

This is a good thing.

Welcome to my new friends! I’ll do an intro post someday soon-ish!
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And now, because I played, I have to share:


Wuxi, pool party
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Feeling like you're drifting all alone in the once-fun-but-now-too-quiet pool of Livejournal? Not to worry! [livejournal.com profile] silviarambles is running a friending meme!

Friending Meme for LJ Survivors - 2015 Re-edition


Please remember that friending frenzies work only if you spread the word, so, even if you're not looking for more friends, would you mind doing me a big favour and pimping the meme on your own journals?

Thanks!
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My week has been such a flurry of activity. I wish I could do ERG work all the time. Being a PRIDE board member feeds my soul in ways that my day job cannot. I’m actively looking for jobs in Inclusive Diversity that wouldn’t require a Re-Lo to Chicago or a ton of travel. Being away from my family for five days this month and then another week next month makes me feel all sorts of twitchy. My to do list is getting to-done… ish. I mean, look!


I have to spend a good chuck of the afternoon writing out stop-gaps my leaders pointed out in my Measurement Strategy document. Then I have a finance call with the leader of the African American Working Network to see how they lay out the funding for their field chapters so that we can pitch a new structure to the board sometime this fall for 2016. It is already time to plan for 2016! This strategic venture position is NOT A JOKE. My head hurts.

But tonight is GAY PROM! Nicole is coming home to cook me one of our favorite meals, we’re going to get gussied up in formal wear and go out on the town while Nana keeps the kids overnight. I’m excited!

I forced myself through a simple three miler today. I don’t know what has me feeling lethargic and weak this week. I’m mightily disappointed that my athletic body is crapping out on me this week. I hope it’s hormonal or that I’ve just fed my body incorrectly for the last few days (being out of town).
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Oh my goodness! Back in full swing after a wonderful long weekend in Boston and Cape Cod. Working from home is such a gift. I missed the kids so much and Nana had a long five days, so I was able to stay home with them this morning to give her a long, restful morning and spend a few extra hours with them. I still had to sign in right at nine, but worked my email on the front porch at a leisurely pace while they played in the yard. The meter reader told us there was a box turtle next door, so we had time to play with the box turtle for a bit, fed him a strawberry and released him back where we got him. I think the kids needed that long morning as much as I did. I made them French toast for breakfast and enabled Nicole to make it to work on time(ish). They just left with Nicole’s mom for their Monday Music Class.

Nic and I were both hung over from the road travel, I think. The drive didn’t feel particularly hard until I had to wake up with Brenner this morning! Coffee was the only thing that made me feel any better!

Boston was amazing. We went up on Wednesday to Mashpee on Cape Cod where our college friend lives. Thursday morning we got up, drove to the nearest Park-and-Ride and made our way into the city. We got there around 11, I think and walked through as much of Boston as we could. My FitBit said we walked 10 miles that day! To the aquarium, the harbor, the Freedom Trail, The North End, Boylston Street, Newbury street… It was phenomenal to adventure around with my favorite adventure partner.
Graduation was Friday morning. I felt snazzy in my regalia, loved meeting some of the other M.Ed folks (including my only other cohort member!) and loved that the ceremony gave me closure on the degree path and made me feel like I’d accomplished something tremendous. I walked around feeling so utterly proud of myself for the whole day! We quickly escaped Boston to get back to the Cape before traffic started up.

Spent time with Lisa and her little boy, had a great dinner together near Woods Hole. On Saturday morning we took Lisa’s little boy to her mother’s house and met her mom and her partner. Cute little grandma lesbians! It made me extremely happy. They were taking Lisa’s boy fishing on the boat. He was beside himself.

We made our way up the cape to Provincetown. YAY. We had a fabulous day wandering around, driving back down to Chatham and having a delightful dinner once again.

On our way through Connecticut yesterday, we were able to stop and meet another college friend and her husband and new baby for lunch. I LOVE that our alma mater gave us so many strong connections. We rarely go anywhere without having someone we love nearby! It. Was. Awesome.

Nicole did such a great job planning this vacation and I was/am so grateful that I got to take part in the commencement. I am truly, truly humbled by this life we lead together. It’s nice to remember that even though life is hectic, fast paced, crazy, full of whiny toddlers, and generally insane – that we’re remarkable blessed and complete together.More Pictures )
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And then, just like that, it was Friday.

I gauge the morning by birdsong. If there are half a dozen bird voices, it’s about 4:30 AM. And that’s about the time that Tucker threw up this morning. It was dark. By the time he started throwing up again, the birdsong placed us at about 5:00 AM. More birds, but less than the orchestral (orkestrel? Ha ha.) swell of 6:00 AM or the downright cacophony of 6:30. Poor, poor sick dog. I bet when you started this paragraph you thought it would be a lot prettier in content than it was, didn’t you? Fooled you. I’m feeling a little punchy. We’ll blame the aforementioned fact that I’ve been up since 4:30. Don’t hold it against me, okay?

It was nice to be awake and have warm and aware moments of falling back in to bed (knowing that going back to sleep is futile when your alarm goes off at 5:30) and snuggling with my wife. I sincerely love those close moments. Especially when the room is so chilly! There was a frost warning last night. It is going to be MAY next week. Frost? Seriously? It was cold enough in the house yesterday that I turned on the heater. The HEATER.

Tomorrow is the Earth Day festival and the forecast calls for temperatures in the 40s and rain. Sigh. That seems completely unfair. This is the weirdest end-of-April ever.

I was supposed to take PTO today, but decided that since it is SO cold, I might as well hole up in my office with my space heater on and work. No one wants to waste a PTO day on a chilly day in April, am I right?

I am planning on taking a leisurely run later. Like, in the next hour or so, maybe. I’ve eaten a LOT of sweets this week, so I should really run. Did I mention it’s cold? (What a wimp! I ran when it was 16 degrees and icy! Scary how easily we get soft in the spring weather.)

Our Mosely dog has something wrong. Sunday morning he lost control of his bladder. He’s 70 pounds, so when that happens, there is a FLOOD. He was in our bedroom (above our living room) when it happened and I knew before Nicole did (she was sleeping) because pee literally came through the ceiling. I thought we had a water leak! Nope. Just a Mosely Leak. He went to vet and because we’ve noticed an increase in the water he’s drinking, the loss of bladder control (which is still happening), and they couldn’t find any indication of infection, we’re looking at early renal failure or Cushings Disease. We’re crossing our fingers that the urine sample they sent off to be cultured does come back with some infection, but Nicole said that the vet seemed to indicate that it was unlikely. Poor Momo. He’s confined to the bathroom downstairs during the day now and we’re letting him out all the time. He seems to be really confused by the fact that he can’t hold it anymore. Having older critters is rough.
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My sleep rhythms are messed up. I haven’t been able to go to sleep before 10:00 this week, and more likely it is 11:00 or midnight before I finally succumb to peace. My alarm is still going off at 5:30, though on Tuesday and yesterday I was able to sleep until 7:00 because when I work from home, I don’t have to get up and get moving. I can’t decide why I’m out of sync. I’m off my running and office schedule (with an unexpected day of working from home on Tuesday and giving my knee a reprieve on Wednesday…) but I haven’t ever had it affect my sleep this much!

Needless to say, I’m tired.

I gave up on The Goldfinch. I hate to give up on things, but Nicole reminded me that “life is too short to force yourself to finish a book because you feel like you ought to”. Maybe at some other point in my life I’ll return to it and the Pulitzer in it. As a recovery treat, I binge read two lesbian romance novels in 24 hours. Don’t judge. Sometimes you NEED fluffy. And trust me, after The Goldfinch, I was ready for some fluffy.

I also bought “Letters of Note” since it was on sale ($3.99!) and have been reading it on the iPad since the compiler has includes photographs of the original letters wherever possible. Virginia Woolf’s suicide letter to her husband, Mary Stuart’s letter to Henry III of France at 2:00 AM the night she learned she would be executed the next morning, the Queen of England writing to Eisenhower and including her drop scone recipe… Seriously, the queen makes scones? It has been fun and fascinating. I think my favorite letter is a response from E.B. White (Author: Charlotte’s Web) to Nadeau when Nadeau asked his opinion on the bleak future of the human race:

“It is quite obvious that the human race has made a queer mess of life on this planet. But as a people we probably harbor the seeds of goodness that have lain for a long time to sprout when the conditions are right. Man’s curiousity, his relentlessness, his inventiveness, and his ingenuity have led him into deep trouble. We can only hope that the same traits will enable him to claw his way out. Hang on to your hat. Hang on to your hope. And wind the clock for tomorrow is another day.”

I looked at my “To Read” list and didn’t feel moved to read anything I have on it. That’s a shame. I was so excited to MAKE that list! I need a really good, carrying story where I can suspend a little of my reality for a while, maybe.

Did I mention how tired I am?

It’s another rainy day in the mountains of Virginia. Brooks looked out this morning and said, “It can’t be morning! It’s so DARK!”

“It’s raining, baby!”
“Again? Why is it always raining now?”

“April showers bring May flowers, Brooksie.”

“But MAMA.” Exasperated. “We already HAVE flowers.”
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10 Day Meme
Day 1 - Ten random facts about yourself
Day 2 - Nine things you do everyday
Day 3 - Eight things that annoy you
Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias
Day 5 - Six songs that you're addicted to

Day 6 - Five things you can't live without
Day 7 - Four memories you won't forget
Day 8 - Three words you can't go a day without
Day 9 - Two things you wish you could do
Day 10 - One person you can trust

Five Things I cannot live without:

  1. My sweet family.

  2. Books.

  3. Coffee.

  4. Running. (And really, really good running shoes)

  5. Appliances- specifically my washing machine and dishwasher. What time savers!

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I did six minutes of a 15 minute arm workout this morning. So. Many. Pushups. I know I need to do them and I’m working up to it. My last core workout I managed to make it 24 minutes before falling prey to exhaustion. A little more each day, that’s the goal. Strength, bit by bit. I’m amazed at what can be done at home without equipment to get you started. I mean, SWorkit is trying to kill me.

I should have gone into the office today, but there’s a slight chance of ice, I am overwhelmed with grad school work, and I have THINGS TO DO that will not get done if I am in the office chatting with my team. A responsible decision but I also feel quasi-bad about not going in when we so rarely see each other. Okay. Twice a week isn’t RARE, but still.

I haven’t weighed in for several weeks and usually do that on Tuesday mornings. I kind of don’t want to know. Which probably means I need to just check in with the scale. All my clothes still fit and I’m working out more than ever, so there’s that.

I stayed up entirely too late last night reading The 13th Tale. I absolutely LOVED the language. What beautifully crafted sentences and paragraphs. The storyline took a while to hook me, but once it did I was pleasantly carried along until the end. I have to say that I was left feeling a little lackluster at the ending, though. I don’t know why, either. Most of the readers I really respect gave it high marks on Goodreads and I was kind of “Meh.” and rated it three stars.

 I’m thinking I want to splurge on Station 11 as my next book. Or maybe throw in another lesbian romance for fluff. I also want to read The Book of Strange New Things. And neither of THOSE is on my 2015 reading challenge list!

What are you all reading?

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