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Sep. 11th, 2013 02:50 pmBeach sunset last week:
I had all these thoughts when I came in this morning, the sun hanging like an angry red ball in the sky. Here we are perched on the edge of fall and I am desperately waiting for cooler weather and a routine to take hold.
I found out today that I didn’t get the promotion and there was a wave of calm that passed over me about the whole situation. I am thrilled that it truly feels like the universe is taking care of me. My heart is already somewhere else and I don’t want to waste the energy I need to love my family and get through school to climb a ladder I’m not interested in climbing.
I’ve been up until 10:00 or 10:30 every night reading for school and up at 5:00 AM to get in another hour of reading before work. Last night I picked up the kids, came home and cooked a healthy, yummy meal and got them to bed before hitting the books and I felt like a super mom. I am struggling in the best possible way – finding out just how much I can take while reading up on Organization Theory and formulating new ideas and settling into a new routine where Nicole and I sit side by side in the evenings and I read read read and she watches her shows.
I am scared. I am excited. I am worried. I am elated. I am wondering. Curious. Restless. Satisfied. Terrified. Stressed. Happy. Silly. And tackling a *dream*. I just want to do a good job. Better than good. I want “A”s and to excel. So, I wish peace on my heart and move forward intentionally with a spirit of forgiveness and I figure out this new routine and life. I haven’t been running in week and I am itching to get out on the road but I am trying to find the time to carve out to do so. All will be well.
I am trying to keep up on the FList but I have been dismal about it this week. Hang in there, friends! I am still here and reading along as I am able.
I had all these thoughts when I came in this morning, the sun hanging like an angry red ball in the sky. Here we are perched on the edge of fall and I am desperately waiting for cooler weather and a routine to take hold.
I found out today that I didn’t get the promotion and there was a wave of calm that passed over me about the whole situation. I am thrilled that it truly feels like the universe is taking care of me. My heart is already somewhere else and I don’t want to waste the energy I need to love my family and get through school to climb a ladder I’m not interested in climbing.
I’ve been up until 10:00 or 10:30 every night reading for school and up at 5:00 AM to get in another hour of reading before work. Last night I picked up the kids, came home and cooked a healthy, yummy meal and got them to bed before hitting the books and I felt like a super mom. I am struggling in the best possible way – finding out just how much I can take while reading up on Organization Theory and formulating new ideas and settling into a new routine where Nicole and I sit side by side in the evenings and I read read read and she watches her shows.
I am scared. I am excited. I am worried. I am elated. I am wondering. Curious. Restless. Satisfied. Terrified. Stressed. Happy. Silly. And tackling a *dream*. I just want to do a good job. Better than good. I want “A”s and to excel. So, I wish peace on my heart and move forward intentionally with a spirit of forgiveness and I figure out this new routine and life. I haven’t been running in week and I am itching to get out on the road but I am trying to find the time to carve out to do so. All will be well.
I am trying to keep up on the FList but I have been dismal about it this week. Hang in there, friends! I am still here and reading along as I am able.
